The Lotus Eaterby W. Somerset Maugham |
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Most
people, the vast majority in fact, lead the lives that circumstances have
thrust upon them, and though some repine, looking upon themselves as round pegs
in square holes, and think that if things had been different they might have
made a much better showing, the greater part accept their lot, if not with
serenity, at all events with resignation. They are like train-cars travelling
forever on the selfsame rails. They go backwards and forwards, backwards and
forwards, inevitably, till they can go no longer and then are sold as
scrap-iron. It is not often that you find a man who has boldly taken the course
of his life into his own hands. When you do, it is worth while having a good
look at him.
That
was why I was curious to meet Thomas Wilson. It was an interesting and a bold
thing he had done. Of course the end was not yet and until the experiment was
concluded it was impossible to call it successful. But from what I had heard it
seemed he must be an odd sort of fellow and I thought I should like to know
him. I had been told he was reserved, but I had a notion that with patience and
tact I could persuade him to confide in me. I wanted to hear the facts from his
own lips. People exaggerate, they love to romanticize, and I was quite prepared
to discover that his story was not nearly so singular as I had been led to
believe.
And
this impression was confirmed when at last I made his acquaintance. It was on
the Piazza in Capri, where I was spending the month of August at a friend`s
villa, and a little before sunset, when most of the inhabitants, native and
foreign, gather together to chat with their friends in the cool of the evening.
There is a terrace that overlooks the Bay of Naples, and when the sun sinks
slowly into the sea the island of Ischia is silhouetted against a blaze of
splendour. It is one of the most lovely sights in the world. I was standing
there with my friend and host watching it, when suddenly he said:
"Look,
there`s Wilson."
"Where?"
"The
man sitting on the parapet, with his back to us. He`s got a blue shirt
on."
I
saw an undistinguished back and a small head of grey hair, short and rather
thin.
"I
wish he`d turn round," I said.
"He
will presently."
"Ask
him to come and have a drink with us at Norgano`s."
"All
right."
The
instant of overwhelming beauty had passed and the sun, like the top of an
orange, was dipping into a wine-red sea. We turned round and leaning our backs
against the parapet looked at the people who were sauntering to and fro. They
were all talking their heads off and the cheerful noise was exhilarating. Then
the church bell, rather cracked, but with a fine resonant note, began to ring.
The Piazza at Capri, with its clock lower over the footpath that leads up from
the harbour, with the church up a flight of steps, is a perfect setting for an
opera by Donizetti, and you felt that the voluble crowd might at any moment
break out into a rattling chorus. It was charming and unreal.
I
was so intent on the scene that I had not noticed Wilson get off the parapet
and come towards us. As he passed us my friend stopped him.
"Hullo,
Wilson, I haven`t seen you bathing the last few days."
"I`ve
been bathing on the other side for a change."
My
friend then introduced me. Wilson shook hands with me politely, but with
indifference; a great many strangers come to Capri for a few days, or a few
weeks; and I had no doubt he was constantly meeting people who came and went;
and then my friend asked him to come along and have a drink with us.
"I
was just going back to supper," he said.
"Can`t
it wail?" I asked.
"I
suppose it can," he smiled.
Though
his teeth were not very good his smile was attractive. It was gentle and
kindly. He was dressed in a blue cotton shirt and a pair of grey trousers, much
creased and none too clean, of a thin canvas, and on his feet he wore a pair of
very old espadrilles. The get-up was picturesque, and very suitable to the
place and the weather, but it did not at all go with his face. It was a lined,
long face, deeply sunburned, thin-lipped, with small grey eyes rather close
together and light, neat features. The grey hair was carefully brushed. It was
not a plain face, indeed in his youth Wilson might have been good-looking, but
a prim one. He wore the blue shirt, open at the neck, and the grey canvas
trousers, not as though they belonged to him, but as though, shipwrecked in his
pyjamas, he had been fitted out with odd garments by compassionate strangers.
Notwithstanding this careless attire he looked like the manager of a branch
office in an insurance company, who should by rights be wearing a black coat
with pepper-and-salt trousers, a while collar, and an unobjectionable tie. I
could very well see myself going to him to claim the insurance money when I had
lost a watch, and being rather disconcerted while I answered the questions he
put to me by his obvious impression, for all his politeness, that people who
made such claims were either fools or knaves.
Moving
off, we strolled across the Piazza and down the street till we came to
Morgano`s. We sat in the garden. Around us people were talking in Russian,
German, Italian, and English. We ordered drinks. Donna Lucia, the host`s wife,
waddled up and in her low, sweet voice passed the time of day with us. Though
middle-aged now and portly, she had still traces of the wonderful beauty that
thirty years before had driven artists to paint so many bad portraits other.
Her eyes, large and liquid, were the eyes of Hera and her smile was
affectionate and gracious. We three gossiped for a while, for there is always a
scandal of one sort or another in Capri to make a topic of conversation, but
nothing was said of particular interest and in a little while Wilson got up and
left us. Soon afterwards we strolled up to my friend`s villa to dine. On the
way he asked me what I had thought of Wilson.
"Nothing,"
I said. "I don`t believe there`s a word of truth in your story."
"Why
not?"
"He
isn`t the sort of man to do that sort of thing."
"How
does anyone know what anyone is capable of?"
"I
should put him down as an absolutely normal man of business who`s retired on a
comfortable income from ill-edged securities, I think your story`s just the
ordinary Capri tittle- little."
"Have
it your own way," said my friend.
We
were in the habit of bathing at a beach called the Baths of Tiberius. We took a
fly down the road to a certain point and then wandered through lemon groves and
vineyards, noisy with cicadas and heavy with the hot smell of the sun, till we
came to the lop of the cliff down which a steep winding path led to the sea. A
day or two later, just before we got down my friend said:
"Oh,
there`s Wilson back again."
We
scrunched over the beach, the only drawback to the bathing-place being that it
was shingle and not sand, and as we came along Wilson saw us and waved. He was
standing up, a pipe in his mouth, and he wore nothing but a pair or trunks. His
body was dark brown, thin but not emaciated, and, considering his wrinkled face
and grey hair, youthful. Hot from our walk, we undressed quickly and plunged at
once into the water. Six feet from the shore it was thirty feet deep, but so
clear that you could see the bottom. It was warm, yet invigorating.
When
I got out Wilson was lying on his belly, with a towel under him reading a book.
I lit a cigarette and went and sat down beside him.
"Had
a nice swim?" he asked.
He
put his pipe inside his book to mark the place and closing it put it down on
the pebbles beside him. He was evidently willing to talk.
"Lovely,"
I said. "It`s the best bathing in the world."
"Of
course people think those were the Baths of Tiberius." He waved his hand
towards a shapeless mass of masonry that stood half in the water and half out.
"But that`s all rot. It was just one of his villas, you know."
I
did. But it is just as well to let people tell you things when they want to. It
disposes them kindly towards you if you suffer them to impart information.
Wilson gave a chuckle.
"Funny
old fellow, Tiberius. Pity they`re saying now there`s not a word of truth in
all those stories about him."
He
began to tell me all about Tiberius. Well, I had read my Suetonius too and I
had read histories of the Early Roman Empire, so there was nothing very new to
me in what he said. But I observed that he was not ill read. I remarked on it.
"Oh,
well, when I settled down here I was naturally interested, and I have plenty of
time for reading. When you live in a place like this, with all its
associations, it seems to make history so actual. You might almost be living in
historical times yourself."
I
should remark here that this was in 1913. The world was an easy, comfortable
place and no one could have imagined that anything might happen seriously to
disturb the serenity of existence.
"How
long have you been here?" I asked.
"Fifteen
years." He gave the blue and placid sea a glance, and a strangely tender
smile hovered on his thin lips. "I fell in love with the place at first
sight. You`ve heard, I dare say, of the mythical German who came here on the
Naples boat just for lunch and a look at the Blue Grotto and stayed forty
years; well, I can`t say I exactly did that, but it`s come to the same thing in
the end. Only it won`t be forty years in my case. Twenty-five. Still, that`s
better than a poke in the eye with a sharp stick."
I
waited for him to go on. For what he had just said looked indeed as though
there might be something after all in the singular story I had heard. But at
that moment my friend came dripping out of the water very proud of himself
because he had swum a mile, and the conversation turned to other things.
After
that I met Wilson several times, either in the Piazza or on the beach. He was
amiable and polite. He was always pleased to have a talk and I found out that
he not only knew every inch of the island but also the adjacent mainland. He
had read a great deal on all sorts of subjects, but his speciality was the
history of Rome and on this he was very well informed. He seemed to have little
imagination and to be of no more than average intelligence. He laughed a good
deal, but with restraint, and his sense of humour was tickled by simple jokes.
A commonplace man. I did not forget the odd remark he had made during the first
short dial we had had by ourselves, but he never so much as approached the
topic again. One day on our return from the beach, dismissing the cab at the
Piazza, my friend and I told the driver to be ready to take us up to Anacapri
at five. We were going to climb Monte Solaro, dine at a tavern we favoured, and
walk down in the moonlight, for it was full moon and the views by night were
lovely. Wilson was standing by while we gave the cabman instructions, for we
had given him a lift to save him the hot dusty walk, and more from politeness
than for any other reason I asked him if he would care to join us.
"It`s
my party," I said.
"I`ll
come with pleasure," he answered.
But
when the time came to set out my friend was not feeling well, he thought he had
slaved too long in the water, and would not face the long and tiring walk. So I
went alone with Wilson. We climbed the mountain, admired the spacious view, and
got back to the inn as night was falling, hot, hungry, and thirsty. We had
ordered our dinner beforehand. The food was good, for Antonio was an excellent
cook, and the wine came from his own vineyard. It was so light that you felt
you could drink it like water and we finished the first bottle with our
macaroni. By the time we had finished the second we felt that there was nothing
much wrong with life. We sat in a little garden under a great vine laden with
grapes. The air was exquisitely soft. The night was still and we were alone.
The maid brought us bel paese cheese and a plate of figs. I ordered coffee and
strega, which is the best liqueur they make in Italy. Wilson would not have a
cigar, but lit his pipe.
"We`ve
got plenty of time before we need start," he said, "the moon won`t be
over the hill for another hour."
"Moon
or no moon," I said briskly, "of course we`ve got plenty of time.
That`s one of the delights of Capri, that there`s never any hurry."
"Leisure,"
he said. "If people only knew! It`s the most priceless thing a man can
have and they`re such fools they don`t even know it`s something to aim at.
Work? They work for work`s sake. They haven`t got the brains to realize that
the only object of work is to obtain leisure."
Wine
has the effect on some people of making them indulge in general reflections.
These remarks were true, but no one could have claimed that they were original.
I did not say anything, but struck a match to light my cigar.
"It
was full moon the first time I came to Capri," he went on reflectively.
"It might be the same moon as tonight."
"It
was, you know," I smiled.
He
grinned. The only light in the garden was what came from an oil lamp that hung
over our heads. It had been scanty to eat by, but it was good now for
confidences.
"I
didn`t mean that. I mean, it might be yesterday. Fifteen years it is, and when
I look back it seems like a month. I`d never been to Italy before. I came for
my summer holiday. I went to Naples by boat from Marseilles and I had a look
round, Pompeii, you know, and Paestum" and one or two places like that;
then I came here for a week. I liked the look of the place right away, from the
sea, I mean, as I watched it come closer and closer; and then when we got into
the little boats from the steamer and landed at the quay, with all that crowd
of jabbering people who wanted to take your luggage, and the hotel touts, and
the tumbledown houses on the Marina and the walk up to the hotel, and dining on
the terrace - well, it just got me. That`s the truth. I didn`t know if I was
standing on my head or my heels. I`d never drunk Capri wine before, but I`d
heard of it; I think I must have got a bit tight. I sat on that terrace after
they`d all gone to bed and watched the moon over the sea, and there was
Vesuvius with a great red plume of smoke rising up from it. Of course I know
now that wine I drank was ink, Capri wine my eye, but I thought it all right
then. But it wasn`t the wine that made me drunk, it was the shape of the island
and those jabbering people, the moon and the sea and the oleander in the hotel
garden. I`d never seen an oleander be fore."
It
was a long speech and it had made him thirsty. He took up his glass, but it was
empty. I asked him if he would have another strega.
"It`s
sickly stuff. Let`s have a bottle of wine. That`s sound, that is, pure juice of
the grape and can`t hurt anyone."
I
ordered more wine, and when it came filled the glasses. He took a long drink
and after a sigh of pleasure went on.
"Next
day I found my way to the bathing-place we go to. Not bad bathing, I thought.
Then I wandered about the island. As luck would have it, there was a festa up
at the Punta di Timtberio and I ran straight into the middle of it. An image of
the Virgin and priests, acolytes swinging censers, and a whole crowd of jolly,
laughing, excited people, a lot of them all dressed up. I ran across an
Englishman there and asked him what it was all about. `Oh, it`s the feast of
the Assumption,` he said, `at least that`s what the Catholic Church says it is,
but that`s just their hanky-panky. It`s the festival of Venus. Pagan, you know.
Aphrodite rising from the sea and all that.` It gave me quite a funny feeling
to hear him. It seemed to take one a long way back, if you know what I mean.
After that I went down one night to have a look at the Faraglioni by moonlight.
If the fates had wanted me to go on being a bank manager they oughtn`t to have
let me take that walk."
"You
were a bank manager, were you?" I asked.
I
had been wrong about him, but not far wrong.
"Yes.
I was manager of the Crawford Street branch of the York and City. It was
convenient for me because I lived up Hendon way. I could get from door to door
in thirty-seven minutes."
He
puffed at his pipe and relit it.
"That
was my last night, that was. I`d got to be back at the bank on Monday morning.
When I looked at those two great rocks sticking out of the water, with the moon
above them, and all the little lights of the fishermen in their boats catching
cuttlefish, all so peaceful and beautiful, I said to myself, well, after all,
why should I go back? It wasn`t as if I had anyone dependent on me. My wife had
died of bronchial pneumonia four years before and the kid went to live with her
grandmother my wife`s mother. She was an old fool, she didn`t look after the
kid properly and she got blood-poisoning, they amputated her leg, but they
couldn`t save her and she died, poor little thing."
"How
terrible," I said.
"Yes,
I was cut up at the time, though of course not so much as if the kid had been
living with me, but I dare say it was a mercy. Not much chance for a girl with
only one leg. I was sorry about my wife too. We got on very well together.
Though I don`t know if it would have continued. She was the sort of woman who
was always bothering about what other people`d think. She didn`t like
travelling. Eastbourne was her idea of a holiday. D`you know, I`d never crossed
the Channel till after her death."
"But
I suppose you`ve got other relations, haven`t you?"
"None.
I was an only child. My father had a brother, but he went to Australia before I
was born. I don`t think anyone could easily be more alone in the world than I
am. There wasn`t any reason I could see why I shouldn`t do exactly what I
wanted. I was thirty-four at that time."
He
had told me he had been on the island for fifteen years. That would make him
forty-nine. Just about the age I should have given him.
"I`d
been working since I was seventeen. All I had to look forward to was doing the
same old thing day after day till I retired on my pension. I said to myself, is
it worth it? What`s wrong with chucking it all up and spending the rest of my
life down here? It was the most beautiful place I`d ever seen. But I`d had a
business training, I was cautious by nature. `No,` I said, `I won`t be carried
away like this, I`ll go tomorrow like I said I would and think it over. Perhaps
when I get back to London I`ll think quite differently.` Damned fool, wasn`t I?
I lost a whole year that way."
"You
didn`t change your mind, then?"
"You
bet I didn`t. All the time I was working I kept thinking of the bathing here
and the vineyards and the walks over the hills and the moon and the sea, and
the Piazza in the evening when everyone walks about for a bit of a chat after
the day`s work is over. There was only one thing that bothered me: I wasn`t
sure if I was justified in not working like everybody else did. Then I read a
sort of history book, by a man called Marion Crawford it was, and there was a
story about Sybaris and Crotona. There were two cities; and in Sybaris they
just enjoyed life and had a good time, and in Crotona they were hardy and
industrious and all that. And one day the men of Crotona came over and wiped
Sybaris out, and then after a while a lot of other fellows came over from
somewhere else and wiped Crotona out. Nothing remains of Sybaris, not a stone,
and all that`s left of Crotona is just one column. That settled the matter for
me."
"Oh?"
"It
came to the same in the end, didn`t it? And when you look back now, who were
the mugs?"
I
did not reply and he went on.
"The
money was rather a bother. The bank didn`t pension one off till after thirty
years` service, but if you retired before that they gave you a gratuity".
With that and what I`d got for the sale of my house and the little I`d managed
to save, I just hadn`t enough to buy an annuity to last the rest of my life. It
would have been silly to sacrifice everything so as to lead a pleasant life and
not have a sufficient income to make it pleasant. I wanted to have a little
place of my own, a servant to look after me, enough to buy tobacco, decent
food, books now and then, and something over for emergencies.
I
knew pretty well how much I needed. I found I had just enough to buy an annuity
for twenty-five years."
"You
were thirty-five at the time?"
"Yes.
It would carry me on till I was sixty. After all, no one can be certain of
living longer than that, a lot of men die in their fifties, and by the time a
man`s sixty he`s had the best of life."
"On
the other hand no one can be sure of dying at sixty," I said.
"Well,
I don`t know. It depends on himself, doesn`t it?"
"In
your place I should have stayed on at the bank till I was entitled to my
pension."
"I
should have been forty-seven then. I shouldn`t have been too old to enjoy my
life here, I`m older than that now and I enjoy it as much as I ever did, but I
should have been too old to experience the particular pleasure of a young man.
You know, you can have just as good a time at fifty as you can at thirty, but
it`s not the same sort of good time. I wanted to live the perfect life while I
still had the energy and the spirit to make the most of it. Twenty-five years
seemed a long time to me, and twenty-five years of happiness seemed worth
paying something pretty substantial for. I`d made up my mind to wait a year and
I waited a year. Then I sent in my resignation and as soon as they paid me my
gratuity I bought the annuity and came on here."
"An
annuity for twenty-five years?"
"That`s
right."
"Have
you never regretted?"
"Never.
I`ve had my money`s worth already. And I`ve got ten years more. Don`t you think
after twenty-five years of perfect happiness one ought to be satisfied to call
it a day?"
"Perhaps."
He
did not say in so many words what he would do then, but his intention was
clear. It was pretty much the story my friend had told me, but it sounded
different when I heard it from his own lips. I stole a glance at him. There was
nothing about him that was not ordinary. No one, looking at that neat, prim
face, could have thought him capable of an unconventional action. I did not blame
him. It was his own life that he had arranged in this strange manner, and I did
not see why he should not do what he liked with it. Still, I could not prevent
the little shiver that ran down my spine.
"Getting
chilly?" he smiled. "We might as well start walking down. The moon`ll
be up by now."
Before
we parted Wilson asked me if I would like to go and see his house one day; and
two or three days later, finding out where he lived, I strolled up to see him.
It was a peasant`s cottage, well away from the town, in a vineyard, with a view
of the sea. By the side of the door grew a great oleander in full flower. There
were only two small rooms, a tiny kitchen, and a lean-to in which firewood
could be kept. The bedroom was furnished like a monk`s cell, but the sitting-room,
smelling agreeably of tobacco, was comfortable enough, with two large armchairs
that he had brought from England, a large roll-top desk, a collage piano, and
crowded bookshelves. On the walls were framed engravings of pictures by G. F.
Walls and Lord Leighlon. Wilson told me that the house belonged to the owner of
the vineyard who lived in another collage higher up the hill, and his wife came
in every day to do the rooms and the cooking. He had found the place on his
first visit to Capri, and taking it on his return for good had been there ever
since. Seeing the piano and music open on it, I asked him if he would play.
"I`m
no good, you know, but I`ve always been fond of music and I get a lot of fun
out of strumming."
He
sat down at the piano and played one of the movements from a Beethoven sonata.
He did not play very well. I looked at his music, Schumann and Schubert,
Beethoven, Bach, and Chopin. On the table on which he had his meals was a
greasy pack of cards. I asked him if he played patience.
"A
lot."
From
what I saw of him then and from what I heard from either people I made for
myself what I think must have been a fairly accurate picture of the life he had
led for the last Fifteen years. It was certainly a very harmless one. He
bathed; he walked a great deal, and he seemed never to lose his sense of the
beauty of the island which he knew so intimately; he played the piano and he
played patience; he read. When he was asked to a party he went and, though a
trifle dull, was agreeable. He was not affronted if he was neglected. He liked
people, but with an aloofness that prevented intimacy. He lived thriftily, but
with sufficient comfort. He never owed a penny. I imagine he had never been a
man whom sex had greatly troubled, and if in his younger days he had had now
and then a passing affair with a visitor to the island whose head was turned by
the atmosphere, his emotion, while it lasted, remained, I am pretty sure, well
under his control. I think he was determined that nothing should interfere with
his independence of spirit. His only passion was for the beauty of nature, and
he sought felicity in the simple and natural things that life offers to
everyone. You may say that it was a grossly selfish existence. It was. He was
of no use to anybody, but on the other hand he did nobody any harm. His only
object was his own happiness, and it looked as though he had attained it. Very
few people know where to look for happiness; fewer still find it. I don`t know
whether he was a fool or a wise man. He was certainly a man who knew his own
mind. The odd thing about him to me was that he was so immensely commonplace. I
should never have given him a second thought but for what I knew, that on a
certain day, ten years from then, unless a chance illness cut the thread
before, he must deliberately take leave of the world he loved so well. I
wondered whether it was the thought of this, never quite absent from his mind,
that gave him the peculiar zest with which he enjoyed every moment of the day.
I
should do him an injustice if I omitted to slate that he was not at all in the
habit of talking about himself. I think the friend I was staying with was the
only person in whom he had confided. I believe he only told me the story
because he suspected I already knew it, and on the evening on which he told it
me he had drunk a good deal of wine.
My
visit drew to a close and I left the island. The year after, war broke out. A
number of things happened to me, so that the course of my life was greatly
altered, and it was thirteen years before I went to Capri again. My friend had
been back sometime, but he was no longer so well off, and had moved into a
house that had no room for me; so I was putting up at the hotel. He came to
meet me at the boat and we dined together. During dinner I asked him where
exactly his house was.
"You
know it," he answered. "It`s the little place Wilson had. I`ve built
on a room and made it quite nice."
With
so many other things to occupy my mind I had not given Wilson a thought for
years; but now, with a little shock, I remembered. The ten years he had before
him when I made his acquaintance must have elapsed long ago.
"Did
he commit suicide as he said he would?"
"It`s
rather a grim story."
Wilson`s
plan was all right. There was only one flaw in it and this, I suppose, he could
not have foreseen. It had never occurred to him that after twenty-five years of
complete happiness, in this quiet backwater, with nothing in the world to
disturb his serenity, his character would gradually lose its strength. The will
needs obstacles in order to exercise its power; when it is never thwarted, when
no effort is needed to achieve one`s desires, because one has placed one`s
desires only in the things that can be obtained by stretching out one`s hand,
the will grows impotent. If you walk on a level all the time the muscles you
need to climb a mountain will atrophy. These observations are trite, but there
they are. When Wilson`s annuity expired he had no longer the resolution to make
the end which was the price he had agreed to pay for that long period of happy
tranquility. I do not think, as far as I could gather, both from what my friend
told me and afterwards from others, that he wanted courage. It was just that he
couldn`t make up his mind. He put it off from day to day.
He
had lived on the island for so long and had always settled his accounts so
punctually that it was easy for him to get credit; never having borrowed money
before, he found a number of people who were willing to lend him small sums
when now he asked for them. He had paid his rent regularly for so many years
that his landlord, whose wife Assunta still acted as his servant, was content
to let things slide for several months. Everyone believed him when he said that
a relative had died and that he was temporarily embarrassed because owing to
legal formalities he could not for some time get the money that was due to him.
He managed to hang on after this fashion for something over a year. Then he
could get no more credit from the local tradesmen, and there was no one to lend
him any more money. His landlord gave him notice to leave the house unless he
paid up the arrears of rent before a certain date.
The
day before this he went into his tiny bedroom, closed the door and the window,
drew the curtain, and lit a brazier of charcoal. Next morning when Assunta came
to make his breakfast she found him insensible but still alive. The room was
draughty, and though he had done this and that to keep out the fresh air he had
not done it very thoroughly. It almost looked as though at the last moment, and
desperate though his situation was, he had suffered from a certain infirmity of
purpose. Wilson was taken to the hospital, and though very ill for some time he
at last recovered. But as a result either of the charcoal poisoning or of the
shock he was no longer in complete possession of his faculties. He was not
insane, at all events not insane enough to be put in an asylum, but he was
quite obviously no longer in his right mind.
"I
went to see him," said my friend. "I tried to get him to talk, but he
kept looking at me in a funny sort of way, as though he couldn`t quite make out
where he`d seen me before. He looked rather awful lying there in bed, with a
week`s growth of grey beard on his chin; but except for that funny look in his
eyes he seemed quite normal."
"What
funny look in his eyes?"
"I
don`t know exactly how to describe it. Puzzled. It`s an absurd comparison, but
suppose you threw a stone up into the air and it didn`t come down but just
stayed there..."
"It
would be rather bewildering," I smiled.
"Well,
that`s the sort of look he had."
It
was difficult to know what to do with him. He had no money and no means of
gelling any. His effects were sold, but for too little to pay what he owed. He
was English, and the Italian authorities did not wish to make themselves
responsible for him. The British Consul in Naples had no funds to deal with the
case. He could of course be sent back to England, but no one seemed to know
what could be done with him when he got there. Then Assunta, the servant, said
that he had been a good master and a good tenant, and as long as he had the
money had paid his way; he could sleep in the woodshed in the cottage in which
she and her husband lived, and he could share their meals. This was suggested
to him. It was difficult to know whether he understood or not. When Assunta
came to take him from the hospital he went with her without remark. He seemed
to have no longer a will of his own. She had been keeping him now for two
years.
"It`s
not very comfortable, you know," said my friend. "They`ve rigged him
up a ramshackle bed and given him a couple of blankets, but there`s no window,
and it`s icy cold in winter and like an oven in summer. And the food`s pretty
rough. You know how these peasants eat: macaroni on Sundays and meat once in a
blue moon."
"What
does he do with himself all the time?"
"He
wanders about the hills. I`ve tried to see him two or three times, but it`s no
good; when he sees you coming he runs like a hare. Assunta comes down to have a
chat with me now and then and I give her a bit of money so that she can buy him
tobacco, but God knows if he ever gets it."
"Do
they treat him all right?" I asked.
"I`m
sure Assunta`s kind enough. She treats him like a child. I`m afraid her
husband`s not very nice to him. He grudges the cost of his keep. I don`t
believe he`s cruel or anything like that, but I think he`s a bit sharp with
him. He makes him fetch water and clean the cow-shed and that sort of
thing.`"
"It
sounds pretty rotten," I said.
"He
brought it on himself. After all, he`s only got what he deserved."
"I
think on the whole we all get what we deserve," I said. "But that
doesn`t prevent its being rather horrible."
Two
or three days later my friend and I were taking a walk. We were strolling along
a narrow path through an olive grove.
"There`s
Wilson," said my friend suddenly. "Don`t look, you`ll only frighten
him. Go straight on."
I
walked with my eyes on the path, but out of the corners of them I saw a man
hiding behind an olive tree. He did not move as we approached, but I fell that
he was watching us. As soon as we had passed I heard a scamper. Wilson, like a
hunted animal, had made for safely. That was the last I ever saw of him.
He died last year. He had endured that life for six years. He was found one morning on the mountainside lying quite peacefully as though he had died in his sleep. From where he lay he had been able to see those two great rocks called the Faraglioni which stand out of the sea. It was full moon and he must have gone to see them by moonlight. Perhaps he died of the beauty of that sight.